So tonight we had a fundraiser at Grace for Acting On AIDS. Its called Lip Sync and students tryout to lipsync infront of an audience. People did N*Sync, Backstreet Boys, Relient K, Miley Cyrus, and several others. Some girls on my hall and I did a song called "Jesus Is A Friend of Mine" by Sonseed. I first heard about this on David Crowder Band's blog. Apparently they did this for the Benediction at UBC. Here is the link to watch the band on Youtube: Its extremely hilarious!
Anyways, we did this for Lip Sync tonight and another girl on my hall recorded it for me on my camera. I will post the link on here as soon as I can upload it onto youtube.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Growing Up
A couple of weeks ago I had mentioned to the Jr. High youth pastor that I help with about being intersted in possibly doing an internship of some kind. And this past friday, the director of student ministries/senior high youth pastor approached me and said that the jr. high youth pastor had told him i was interested in doing an internship with the church. they both said that they would really like to have me for an intern and to discuss it further, which definately blew my mind at how positive they were about it! i am still excited at how positive they were about me being an intern with the youth group. now i dont know whether or not that will happen, but still, i feel very honored by what they said. and if it did work out, i think it would be an amazing experience and a really healthy growing expericence too.
so, if this worked out, i would most likely do the internship during the summer rather than during the school year. and my options would to either live with a family from the church or if i could find some friends to get an apartment with (which my roommate and i already started discussing and looking at apartments the 2nd week of school) then to share an apartment during that summer and into the school year.
even just entertaining the idea of getting my own place and supporting myself is exciting (which i can only assume will fade away once bills come!) for me to think about and try to plan out. eventually, i need to learn how to support myself because i really dont want to become one of those people that ends up on dr. phil because my parents cant get rid of their 40 year-old daughter out of their basement or from mooching off of them.
but its also so weird to think that i would be living here. honestly, i thought about living here once or twice last year in order to do an internship, but i wasnt that positive about the idea of living in this area or with certain people. but now, i can definately see myself living here and really getting plugged into the community and the church. but i still cant help but to think of how weird it would be to not see my family and friends that often during the summer & school year. thats just weird to think that i could be "moving on" (i dont really know a better choice of words than those) at all let alone so soon.
but i really, really like this church family a lot. i dont know that many people yet, but already i feel so comfortable and i do feel like a part of a family! i think the last time i felt like that with the body of Christ was when I first came to The Furnace. i really feel like this church, WCC, is my "home away from home" kind of a deal.
i have other things i would like to blog about but: (1) that would be way too long for this blog and (2) i dont have that much time to do so and (3) i really was supposed to be doing homework about 90 minutes ago! :)
until next time! :D
so, if this worked out, i would most likely do the internship during the summer rather than during the school year. and my options would to either live with a family from the church or if i could find some friends to get an apartment with (which my roommate and i already started discussing and looking at apartments the 2nd week of school) then to share an apartment during that summer and into the school year.
even just entertaining the idea of getting my own place and supporting myself is exciting (which i can only assume will fade away once bills come!) for me to think about and try to plan out. eventually, i need to learn how to support myself because i really dont want to become one of those people that ends up on dr. phil because my parents cant get rid of their 40 year-old daughter out of their basement or from mooching off of them.
but its also so weird to think that i would be living here. honestly, i thought about living here once or twice last year in order to do an internship, but i wasnt that positive about the idea of living in this area or with certain people. but now, i can definately see myself living here and really getting plugged into the community and the church. but i still cant help but to think of how weird it would be to not see my family and friends that often during the summer & school year. thats just weird to think that i could be "moving on" (i dont really know a better choice of words than those) at all let alone so soon.
but i really, really like this church family a lot. i dont know that many people yet, but already i feel so comfortable and i do feel like a part of a family! i think the last time i felt like that with the body of Christ was when I first came to The Furnace. i really feel like this church, WCC, is my "home away from home" kind of a deal.
i have other things i would like to blog about but: (1) that would be way too long for this blog and (2) i dont have that much time to do so and (3) i really was supposed to be doing homework about 90 minutes ago! :)
until next time! :D
Friday, September 19, 2008
New Life w/ Christ
"Since you have been raised to knew life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of Heaven, where Christ sits at a place of honor at God's right hand. Think about the things of Heaven, not the things of earth. For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. And when Christ, who is your life, is revealed to the whole world, you will share in all his glory."
- Colossians 3:1-5
Since this summer I have been trying to honestly remember scripture verses and apply them to everyday things. A couple of years ago I had memorized Colossians 3:12-14, and I looked through Colossians chapter 3 and it is so amazing. So this summer I wanted to try and spend time to memorize chapter 3 of Colossians. I got away from it these last 2 months, but I have remembered different verses when things come up and its been so amazing.
Last night at my youth ministry class, we had a youth pastor come teach the 3 hour class (with a nerf-gun war in the middle for a break!). One of the things that he stressed was prayer and compassion. He challenged us to live a passionate prayer life so that when the students we lead see us, they become passionate too. But even more than that, to be passionate about prayer so that Christ fills us up more and more. WOW! I definately connected with what he said last night. I pray during the day and there are moments when I pray passionately for certain situations. But I can't and don't want to just pray passionately for situations, I want to be passionate whenever I talk to God about whatever! And I want to have compassion and love that comes from God. My fear is that I could grow numb and even calloused towards peoples emotions and troubles because I don't see them as God sees them, that I don't love them as God's children, that I don't have compassion for them that moves me. And there have been some challenging distractions that have occured already after 3 weeks of being here and I know there will be many more to come later on in this year.
Last night was an emotionally draining night, but after my roommate and I prayed, I didn't feel sadness anymore. I honestly felt joy about how beautiful and amazing God is! And it started happening this summer, when difficult things would happen but God would remind me of His glory. Is there anyway for me to adequately explain how glorious and beautiful my Heavenly Father is??? Where do I even begin to praise Him for all that He is and will be, for all that He has done and is going to do??? :)
I feel so loved by God, and it excites me so much that this is only the "beginning" of our relationship and that He will continue to reveal himself to me! And I can only think that things will get so much better as I become more and more passionate about prayer. PRAISE GOD! :)
- Colossians 3:1-5
Since this summer I have been trying to honestly remember scripture verses and apply them to everyday things. A couple of years ago I had memorized Colossians 3:12-14, and I looked through Colossians chapter 3 and it is so amazing. So this summer I wanted to try and spend time to memorize chapter 3 of Colossians. I got away from it these last 2 months, but I have remembered different verses when things come up and its been so amazing.
Last night at my youth ministry class, we had a youth pastor come teach the 3 hour class (with a nerf-gun war in the middle for a break!). One of the things that he stressed was prayer and compassion. He challenged us to live a passionate prayer life so that when the students we lead see us, they become passionate too. But even more than that, to be passionate about prayer so that Christ fills us up more and more. WOW! I definately connected with what he said last night. I pray during the day and there are moments when I pray passionately for certain situations. But I can't and don't want to just pray passionately for situations, I want to be passionate whenever I talk to God about whatever! And I want to have compassion and love that comes from God. My fear is that I could grow numb and even calloused towards peoples emotions and troubles because I don't see them as God sees them, that I don't love them as God's children, that I don't have compassion for them that moves me. And there have been some challenging distractions that have occured already after 3 weeks of being here and I know there will be many more to come later on in this year.
Last night was an emotionally draining night, but after my roommate and I prayed, I didn't feel sadness anymore. I honestly felt joy about how beautiful and amazing God is! And it started happening this summer, when difficult things would happen but God would remind me of His glory. Is there anyway for me to adequately explain how glorious and beautiful my Heavenly Father is??? Where do I even begin to praise Him for all that He is and will be, for all that He has done and is going to do??? :)
I feel so loved by God, and it excites me so much that this is only the "beginning" of our relationship and that He will continue to reveal himself to me! And I can only think that things will get so much better as I become more and more passionate about prayer. PRAISE GOD! :)
Friday, May 23, 2008
Watching the rain fall outside
I find it very calming watching the rain outside and even more just walking in the rain. It seems like it rains more in May than it does in April (they should probably fix that rhyme then).
So I have been trying to memorize scripture verses so that I can use them for when things get difficult mostly but also for other reasons too. I have been practicing Psalm 86:11,12 for the last two weeks. That may seem long for some but for me, it takes a lot of repetition to memorize something so that I can think of it without having to read it first.
"11 Teach me your ways oh Lord that I may live according to your truth. Grant me purity of heart so that I may honor you. 12 With all my heart I will praise you oh Lord my God. I will give glory to your name, forever."
I have been trying to make that my prayer too, disecting each sentence and honestly reflecting on it instead of just reciting words. Its not easy thats for sure, but I guess its starting at the beginning. Learning what God's truth is and making it my lifestyle and to also have a pure heart (that contains a lot in it itself) is so difficult and so important. I am constantly reminding myself that what I say, do, and think needs to give glory to God and that what others think of me shouldn't take priority of what God thinks of me.
So I have been trying to memorize scripture verses so that I can use them for when things get difficult mostly but also for other reasons too. I have been practicing Psalm 86:11,12 for the last two weeks. That may seem long for some but for me, it takes a lot of repetition to memorize something so that I can think of it without having to read it first.
"11 Teach me your ways oh Lord that I may live according to your truth. Grant me purity of heart so that I may honor you. 12 With all my heart I will praise you oh Lord my God. I will give glory to your name, forever."
I have been trying to make that my prayer too, disecting each sentence and honestly reflecting on it instead of just reciting words. Its not easy thats for sure, but I guess its starting at the beginning. Learning what God's truth is and making it my lifestyle and to also have a pure heart (that contains a lot in it itself) is so difficult and so important. I am constantly reminding myself that what I say, do, and think needs to give glory to God and that what others think of me shouldn't take priority of what God thinks of me.
Friday, March 28, 2008
ramblings from the heart
Several weeks ago a speaker in chapel talked about compassion. Honest compassion. And that hit me hard. Have I lost true compassion,that I feel sorry for homeless people, widowed people, orphans, and those who are ill but lack honest and true compassion? Did I ever have honest compassion in the first place; compassion that moved my heart which moved my hands to action (as a speaker said in chapel this week)? I dont know, I guess I have thought about that alot since then.
Last Tuesday night, there was an ice cream party at the youth ministry building on campus and one of the speakers for this week in chapel was there to hang out with us. Several people were asking him questions and one question was what can we do in our community to help those less fortunate since we dont see any homeless people. There is a mobile home community literally on the other side of the fence next to the youth ministry building. There is also another mobile home community on the other side of the lake. And I know I have driven by at least two more mobile home communities in the Warsaw area. I dont know the situations of those that live in the mobile home communities or if they are anything like the situations of the families that live in mobile homes back in Coal Valley, IL. Several times I have thought about going over there and talking to the people next to the youth min. building (literally our neighbors). The only thing holding me back: I do not know of anyone willing to go with me for safety reasons. I would be more than happy to go by myself, but I know that is not safe. On one occasion, my Break Out group needed to do a service project in the fall, I suggested giving candy or some form of treat or service to the people in the mobile homes; I was turned down instantly. There are many great opportunities to serve in this area: tutoring, soup kitchens, community projects, service projects, disaster relief helping, and many others. I dont know, maybe I am wrong (I hope I am wrong) but it seems like the people in the Mobile Communities might be left out. Maybe its just because I got to work in the mobile community a couple years ago, other wise I probably wouldn't be noticing right now.
I was at WalMart last night getting groceries. I was looking at the soup and a lady behind me asked if I was shopping for a family or for myself. I said I was just a college student shopping for myself. We had a small conversation about me going to Grace and how she has a child that lives near Grace now. We ended up talking about how expensive food is now days. She mentioned that they didn't have food last week; she got $200 from her husband tonight so she could get groceries. She mentioned that she has five kids and two of them live out of the house. She motioned to her cart and it was competely full with soup cans and other groceries: all of that so far came to about $96 and she still needed to get some kind of meat. Her daughter came over and I talked to her a little bit (she had gone to a concert that she won tickets for on the radio, and she was pretty excited about that).
Made me think about all of those huge, beautiful mansions that are over in Winona Lake, Warsaw, and just past Grace College. Those huge houses out by the golf courses or those houses that over-look the lake.
There is one housing division with gorgeous houses that over-look Winona Lake and some of those houses have their backs to some kind of woods. On the other side of those woods, tucked away where no one can see is a mobile home community that seems to flood very easily.
i guess these are just some of the ramblings inside of my heart & head.
Last Tuesday night, there was an ice cream party at the youth ministry building on campus and one of the speakers for this week in chapel was there to hang out with us. Several people were asking him questions and one question was what can we do in our community to help those less fortunate since we dont see any homeless people. There is a mobile home community literally on the other side of the fence next to the youth ministry building. There is also another mobile home community on the other side of the lake. And I know I have driven by at least two more mobile home communities in the Warsaw area. I dont know the situations of those that live in the mobile home communities or if they are anything like the situations of the families that live in mobile homes back in Coal Valley, IL. Several times I have thought about going over there and talking to the people next to the youth min. building (literally our neighbors). The only thing holding me back: I do not know of anyone willing to go with me for safety reasons. I would be more than happy to go by myself, but I know that is not safe. On one occasion, my Break Out group needed to do a service project in the fall, I suggested giving candy or some form of treat or service to the people in the mobile homes; I was turned down instantly. There are many great opportunities to serve in this area: tutoring, soup kitchens, community projects, service projects, disaster relief helping, and many others. I dont know, maybe I am wrong (I hope I am wrong) but it seems like the people in the Mobile Communities might be left out. Maybe its just because I got to work in the mobile community a couple years ago, other wise I probably wouldn't be noticing right now.
I was at WalMart last night getting groceries. I was looking at the soup and a lady behind me asked if I was shopping for a family or for myself. I said I was just a college student shopping for myself. We had a small conversation about me going to Grace and how she has a child that lives near Grace now. We ended up talking about how expensive food is now days. She mentioned that they didn't have food last week; she got $200 from her husband tonight so she could get groceries. She mentioned that she has five kids and two of them live out of the house. She motioned to her cart and it was competely full with soup cans and other groceries: all of that so far came to about $96 and she still needed to get some kind of meat. Her daughter came over and I talked to her a little bit (she had gone to a concert that she won tickets for on the radio, and she was pretty excited about that).
Made me think about all of those huge, beautiful mansions that are over in Winona Lake, Warsaw, and just past Grace College. Those huge houses out by the golf courses or those houses that over-look the lake.
There is one housing division with gorgeous houses that over-look Winona Lake and some of those houses have their backs to some kind of woods. On the other side of those woods, tucked away where no one can see is a mobile home community that seems to flood very easily.
i guess these are just some of the ramblings inside of my heart & head.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
August Rush
Last night my hall (A3E) went to Fort Wayne to stay the night at my RA Cassie's house and go see a movie at the dollar theaters. I have never heard of a dollar theater before I came to Grace and I must say it is pretty amazing. My ticket was $1.50 and we all went to see August Rush. AMAZING movie!!!! The music in it is incredible and it has an awesome message about not giving up when everyone tells you your dreams won't happen. I would definately go and see the movie again (if i have money, i might buy it too). I am totally amazed by the music in it, so beautiful.
so there was a group of about four cars going last night. both of my RAs were in different cars, i drove (so i could come back at night for homework), and Rachel drove her car too. When we left the theaters, we lost Cassie and we followed Leah onto the wrong exit ramp. Not knowing this and thinking we were going the right way, Rachel and I both got in front of Leah. Leah ended up calling Rachel to tell her that she got off on the last exit because we were going the wrong way. Rachel calls me to tell me to get off the next exit and she will follow me. We drove for about 20min. and ended up EXACTLY where we started (we made a circle around the outside of Ft. Wayne). People in Rachel's car needed a drink and to go pee, so we stopped at Starbucks. Me and Paige stayed in my car while Rachel's car went inside, and it was a perfect opportunity to show our 'love' to them. :) me and paige took the left-over caution tape out of my car and wrapped Rachel's car with caution tape. They came out and saw what happened (laughing of course) and we ventured out to Cassie's house. We got there in about 35min. ok. I left about a half-hour later (Paige stayed and Jeanette came with me back home). Good times!!!
Well I need to do homework now (200 pages to read today!) but I just wanted to update my blog for those that read it (Amber and Sarah)!!!
Love ya!
so there was a group of about four cars going last night. both of my RAs were in different cars, i drove (so i could come back at night for homework), and Rachel drove her car too. When we left the theaters, we lost Cassie and we followed Leah onto the wrong exit ramp. Not knowing this and thinking we were going the right way, Rachel and I both got in front of Leah. Leah ended up calling Rachel to tell her that she got off on the last exit because we were going the wrong way. Rachel calls me to tell me to get off the next exit and she will follow me. We drove for about 20min. and ended up EXACTLY where we started (we made a circle around the outside of Ft. Wayne). People in Rachel's car needed a drink and to go pee, so we stopped at Starbucks. Me and Paige stayed in my car while Rachel's car went inside, and it was a perfect opportunity to show our 'love' to them. :) me and paige took the left-over caution tape out of my car and wrapped Rachel's car with caution tape. They came out and saw what happened (laughing of course) and we ventured out to Cassie's house. We got there in about 35min. ok. I left about a half-hour later (Paige stayed and Jeanette came with me back home). Good times!!!
Well I need to do homework now (200 pages to read today!) but I just wanted to update my blog for those that read it (Amber and Sarah)!!!
Love ya!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Humus
I got humus last night to finally try. I didn't know what kind to get for sure so I just got 'original'. The more I ate it the more I liked it. I offered it to a couple of my friends in my dorm, Aubrie was the only one who ate it and liked it. I thought about having some now actually, but decided it was too early in the morning to have humus. I will probably crave it during chapel too I guess. why is that? sometimes I wonder why we were created to have desires that repeat (does that make sense?). Maybe not even necessarily desires, but even other emotions or feelings. So many times I tell myself that I will never have that thought again or feeling again but it comes back like a boomerang.
Looked up the definition of sin on Wikipedia:
"Sin is often used to mean an action that is prohibited or considered wrong; in some religions (notably some sects of Christianity), sin can refer to a state of mind rather than a specific action. Colloquially, any thought, word, or act considered immoral, shameful, harmful, or alienating might be termed "sinful".
So does that mean that depression is a sin? Depression and thoughts of suicide? I have heard numerous times that those who are depressed are suffering a mental disability. So if depression is a sin, and all sin is equal, than is it still ok for a person to be in a leadership position or in a ministry position if they struggle with it? To have a leader who struggles with alcohol or drugs or pornography or stealing or adultery, they would be "relieved" of their position.
I am doing my speech in Public Speaking on depression. I was thinking about the cause and effect of depression and I was thinking about this. For those who struggle with months on and off of struggling with depression, not that they desire it, but it is like a boomerang.
Looked up the definition of sin on Wikipedia:
"Sin is often used to mean an action that is prohibited or considered wrong; in some religions (notably some sects of Christianity), sin can refer to a state of mind rather than a specific action. Colloquially, any thought, word, or act considered immoral, shameful, harmful, or alienating might be termed "sinful".
So does that mean that depression is a sin? Depression and thoughts of suicide? I have heard numerous times that those who are depressed are suffering a mental disability. So if depression is a sin, and all sin is equal, than is it still ok for a person to be in a leadership position or in a ministry position if they struggle with it? To have a leader who struggles with alcohol or drugs or pornography or stealing or adultery, they would be "relieved" of their position.
I am doing my speech in Public Speaking on depression. I was thinking about the cause and effect of depression and I was thinking about this. For those who struggle with months on and off of struggling with depression, not that they desire it, but it is like a boomerang.
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